Got the letter from the Dr.

So the good news first... I am on the right track. The bad news however is simply this my liver took a serious hit during the last 3 months, so no more drinking parties for me for a while and if I don't get my diet under control it is going to be drugs to keep my blood sugar under control. My hemoglobin A1C was 8.8 which is really bad. This is how bad when I found out that I had diabetes my 90 day HA1C was only 7.0 which is not good, but not that bad. I was down to a 5 for 6 months then for like 8 months I did not see my Dr and it comes back 8.8. So it is time to kick this into overdrive to really depend on God and get the exercise program going. Right now I am listening to RAtM township rebellion the main chorus is "I stand on a silent platform, fight the war Fuck the norm." It is time fight the battle.
God, I am tired of the messed up things that hold me down the bitterness the anguish of failure. I know you are king and creator I want nothing more than to put myself in your hands and pound a future worth living. Ignorance will no longer rein in this mind. I turn over me to you God you are so much greater than me and I can no longer deny that in any part of my being. Help me to deeper my understanding of the fear of the Lord. Give the faith to bring your healing to all mankind. Drive forward the rejoicing heart in my life. Let me think on all things that are good true and healing loving amazing works of your hands. Kill the voices inside my head of doubt and destruction and push through your dreams and visions.
Amen